Foundation of My Life, Loneliness and Responsibilities 人生底蘊、孤獨與責任 — Jennifer’s World

I listened to a friend talks about his life experience today, and I pondered about my own. I realized that, while I was certainly not born into a family that “won at the starting line” as he was, the family I was born into seemed to have little to do with my upbringing. Of course, my family was an intellectual family, and my parents did their best to give me the best education they could under the circumstances and conditions.

今天聽一個朋友談他的人生經歷，我低頭想了一下自己的。我發現，我固然不如他一樣，出生在一個「贏在起跑線」上的家庭，但我所出生的家庭，跟我的成長似乎沒什麼關係。當然，我的家庭算是個知識分子家庭，我的父母也在盡他們的努力，使我能得到在當時的環境和條件下，能得到的最好的教育。

However, the foundation of my life was formed and created by the “ forbidden books” I read when I was a child and by my “nature” of being a supper book lover.

但是，我的人生的底蘊，是我小時候讀過的那些「 禁書 」，和我瘋狂愛看書的「本性」所形成、造就的，這與家庭無關。

It was those books and my “nature” of being a crazy reader that made, defined, and built me, which is the “innate” me, the original me.

是那些書，和我自己瘋狂愛看書的「本性」成就、定義、打造了我，這是「先天」的我、本來的我。

From this, I also found out that I was born to be lonely. I had been reading alone under the quilt with a flashlight since I was a child. I had no friends, or only very few friends at that time. Most of the people I could not be…